Inner Truth Mystery School: Survival Mode

Hello friends. I have been down and out with a serious cold, sinus infection, fever for the past week. Feeling like I'm returning to some normalcy today.

This week has been interesting watching myself float between survival mode and being in my center. When I was in survival mode, I needed to quantify, qualify, define every pain, discomfort, sleepless moment. I went in to the doctors office for two strep tests this past week (1st on Tuesday, 2nd on Thursday) because I needed a reason why I was feeling so miserable. They tested me for mono, too. All came back negative. My moments of centeredness, knew that this would past and I would be fine, but try telling that to my suffering mind!

Now, that I feel some relief today and can see and feel that beautiful glowing sun within me again shining brightly, I look back in retrospect with my returned peace of "heartmind" and wonder where did this survival mode originate from and powered by what?

painting by SAH