Hello all... so, this Inner Truth Mystery School is a way for us to all share in this experience of life, here and now.
In that spirit, I share with you my life journey to maybe offer help to even just one person through similarly, through opposition, through validation or none of the above. This is not a poor me, nor a look at me, just a story.
I am currently experiencing a dis-ease that stopped me in my tracks again. The breast cancer did this for me 4 years ago, instead of thinking of it as a punishment from the universe or God, I used it as an opportunity for a life lesson, to grow from, to hear what I was supposed to change and do it.
It is now my heart that is trying to tell me something. In Oct. 2013, I was diagnosed with SVT (Supra ventricular tachycardia). Triggered from a fever, my heart beat got up into the 220/minute (normal range 60-100). Since then, I would have this happen, but could get it to return to normal with a couple of deep breaths. Looking back over the last 3 years, I never stopped and asked myself why this was happening with my heart. I've been busy, lots to do, which I thrive on.
Then, my heart started to race last Monday with the onset of the flu, triggered by another fever and wouldn't stop this time. When I reached the hospital, I was crashing. The medical staff couldn't get my heart to return to a normal range. My blood pressure was 60/30. No blood was moving in or out of my heart. Well, life... I am listening again. The docs and nurses were able to save me. Thank you to them. And, I believe I saved myself too. I'm not ready to leave yet.
So, my first lesson I am hearing is an obvious one for me, but a hard one to swallow!
My heart is telling me to slow down, I'm doing to much and going too fast. But I love everything I'm doing!!! I am a full time preschool teacher to a room full of 3 year olds, I started my own business in 2015, obtaining my 200 hour Qigong/Tai Chi teaching certification and teaching 3 Tai Chi classes a week in 2016, performing weddings on the weekends (8 last year), I joined the Healer Within Foundation Board of Directors in August 2016, nominated to be Secretary this February, and then nominated to be the Staff Representative on the Board of Directors for the school where I work starting this month. This is just my professional life, my most important job is being wife and mother to my VIP cast at home, a beautiful husband, daughter and cat, not to forget to mention a wonderful home to nurture... and clean. 😁
With self observation, I asked myself what needs to change for my own self love and well being. What do I have to change, heal, eliminate, dissolve.
The rest of the lessons that come out of this, I will be sharing in the days and weeks to come. Feel free to comment or to just listen. As I believe we are all mirrors for each other and can learn a lot by observing others as much as we can learn with our own self observation.
One last thought...
Once I wanted to save the world. Now I realize, if I save myself I am saving the world. I busyed myself so much to hide behind the tasks of the day instead of facing my ego and the thoughts that tease me, haunt me, nag at me. Well, I am turning my spot light inward, I am listening now, I am watching now, I am feeling now... to let them go.
Sarah offers ease and fun to the process of getting married to couples as a Wedding Officiant with Koru Ceremony LLC. Sarah also contributes to her community as a Tai Chi and Qigong Instructor at the Monona Community Center.